God has loved me first

Today's first reading (1 John 4:7-10) is both beautiful and consoling: God loves me.
But it is also way beyond my normal experience of love: God has loved me first.
My usual experience of love is that there is a certain vibes between two people, a sort of connection that cannot be explained. But a big part of that connection lies on the fact that you are lovable, that is, you have certain qualities that make you lovable for the other peson.
What makes this a little bit complicated is when one wants to be lovable to the other person, yet there is no connection. And a lot of people undergo an overhauling of their own person just so they can somehow have the "x factor" that would make them lovable to the other person. And we see the sad and even tragic consequances of this in so many lives.
So it is not easy to believe when we hear that Somebody loves us first, that is, as we are, for no reason at all, without any merit on our part.
But this unbelievable good news is true! Someone, and that Someone is God, has loved us first.
How is this possible? Because God is love. Loving is God's identity.
Oh how different we would live our lives if we only delight in this truth instead of running after people and proving them that we are worthy to be loved!