A channel of your peace

God, make me a channel of your peace; a peace founded on the certainty that You love me and You take care of me, moment by moment, day by day.
Why is there no peace in my heart? Because there is an angst, a restlessness which I try to fill up with things, accomplishments, persons. For a time they might seem to give me what I want - but it is not peace. It is only a fascinating distraction that afterwards loses its charm. And I am off to square one, feeling restless, face to face with a void, searching, begging, trying for that which will satiate the thirst.
And so there is no peace within me because I just go on and on in this vicious circle.
And there is no peace outside of me because I relate with the world with an aggressive-possessive attitude, thinking that if I just "have" it, it will finally fill up the void.
It seems like I never learn my lesson. But God, you are patient with me. You never force Yourself on me. In Your silence, in Your weakness, You beckon me, You attract me and You draw me to Yourself.
Once drawn, you don't keep me imprisoned because this is against the nature of love.
God, grant me peace, just what I need for this moment, just what I need for today. I don't need to hoard this peace because in doing so, I lose it.
And make me an instrument of this peace.